After 5 months of studying in Indonesia, I went back to the Philippines to finish my degree in Financial Management. I graduated Magna Cum Laude last January 2019 and it has been very overwhelming ever since.
Looking back, I can’t help but be thankful for all the things that I have experienced. I’ve learned so many things about myself. I became braver and I started letting go of things that no longer support me and contribute to my happiness and growth. I learned to love myself more. Sometimes, it’s still a struggle that I have to face every day, but after years and years of hidden pain and suffering, thinking that I wasn’t enough, I started to embrace my flaws and the totality of who I am.
After everything I’ve been through, there’s this one secret that motivated me and kept me going. It’s the belief that there’s power in pain. I used it as my drive in order to succeed. I never let it be the reason I become defeated in battle. Every insecurity that comes my way, I use as an opportunity for growth, for me to become a better person. What can I say? What didn’t kill me made me stronger.
“There’s power in pain”
Right now I’m happily in a relationship, I have friends from all over the world, and I have this new found passion to inspire people through my writing. To be honest, I’m still trying to find the right path for me. I’m still trying to figure out how to become the adult I’ve always imagined I’d become. There’s this inner kid inside of me who still wants to enjoy her youth, yet there’s this reality of life wherein we need to take responsibility for our future because we are no longer kids. I just hope and pray that God will guide me to the things that I should do, to the path that I should take, while I figure things out and reach my goals through small baby steps.